--> atok, i miss you

salam

a.t.o.k

i miss you

a lot

i wasn't very close to you

u've gone where i was eight

jealous!!!

people are telling me about

how close they are

with their grannies

i have nothing to tell them back

i have no memories within our times together

i was smiling when they told me theirs

i was laughing when they told me

how they were behaving when they were kids

and their grandmas played with them

but inside

i was crying

LOUDLY

i hid it! i hid it atok

why you left me without any memory?

i LOVE YOU ATOK

I MISS YOU

sometimes

i wished i could recall

what we had together

but i couldn't

because i can't even remember

sometimes

i felt like i never know you

as my grandma, as my friend

like what my friends are always telling me

its sweet

to extract the juices from a fruit

but my fruit is no longer pickable  

it ripes and then rottens in seconds

what bothers me about you

atok?

i was there

when you were almost gone

i saw the pain in your eyes

it was excruciating

but i couldn't understand

because i was very young

i was there

watched your sons and daughters

cleaned up your dirts

lifted your body up

so that you could taste the foods

so that you could feel the chillness of waters

sigh~

but still

i can't be sad

i wasn't mature enough

i wish

i hope

Allah will give me chance

to know you more

in my DREAMS

Aminnn~

Hope you get it...till then, that is how

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